Weekend Wondering #1

Why do we stare at screens in communion with people who don’t love us? I read this in a...

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Weekend Wondering #1
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19 Uncomfortable Truths

“When you write your truth, it is a love offering to the world because it helps us feel braver and less alone.” – Glennon Doyle Melton

“Truth and transparency not only make my life more ethical, but also easier. (Why easier? Because untruth is always complicating, and truth — no matter what the consequences — is always strangely simplifying.)” – Elizabeth Gilbert

“Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage.” – Brene Brown

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  1. The weather effects my mood more than I’d like it to. This is also true of other peoples energy and situations / environments.
  2. I don’t know what it feels like to be alone. And at times that makes me sad. Because I don’t know who I’d be alone. Or who I’d be now had I spent some time alone…
  3. I mutter the words for fuck sake at least 20 times every day. Often before breakfast. And sometimes not very discretely. It’s mostly directed at my kids / husband but also includes clients, customers in shops, servers in cafes, drivers, slow walkers…
  4. I often romanticise memories and make them feel better in reflection than what the actual experience itself was.
  5. There are days when I wish I hadn’t had my kids so young.
  6. I have a constant, niggling low-level anxiety about running out of time. To do what, I don’t really know… But that tick-tocking, watch-tapping shadow seems to follow me around.
  7. I’ve lied to myself and to others to selfishly get what I wanted. Or thought that I needed/deserved.
  8. I feel diluted and stretched too thin in the roles I play. And feel like I’m not particularly good at any of them. The artist in me loves the variety and playing in the mess. My ego smirks and tells me I’m a failure – just give it up.
  9. My kids have beans on toast for dinner too often.
  10. I don’t believe people when they say they have zero regrets. I do. Not getting on that earlier flight to see my dad before he died is one of them.
  11. I’ve given up worrying about what others think. And refuse to feel shame for asking for what I want or telling the truth about how I feel. Regardless of how unpopular or confronting it may be for others. (see Liz Gilbert quote above…)
  12. The need to be right has often trumped the opportunity for me to be happy.
  13. I can see my own fears, anxieties and insecurities reflected back to me in my kids.
  14. There are times when my mind races so fast, I literally cannot sit still.
  15. At times there feel like a hairline between calmness and rage.
  16. I’m often quick to judge and criticise others. This is a self-defence mechanism, I think.
  17. When things are going well I get scared. And inevitably do something to bring me back to where feels comfortable and safe.
  18. Exercise is my drug of choice. I use it to both deal with stress and avoid recognising the stress. I literally run away from it.
  19. I paradoxically crave simplicity and luxury. Or maybe I can have both but don’t allow it…? Like #17?
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Musings on self-doubt and fear

Holy shitballs,

My first reaction: I’M IN LOVE.
I sat on this all night and I’m in love with it so so much.

Today: I’M SO INLOVE LIKE WOAH.

It’s AMAZING.
It’s perfect.
It’s on point.
Fuck you’re the best woman!

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When you wake up to this kinda client email! 🙏

Even after being at this gig for 11 years, I still get nervous when it comes to clicking send on an initial design or illustration.

Did I get their brief?
Will they be disappointed?
Am I *really* any good at this?Continue reading

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Weekend Wondering #1

Why do we stare at screens in communion with people who don’t love us?

I read this in a comment on Russell Brand’s insta this morning about a book he was reading by David Foster Wallace. How true and thought provoking it is…

And I’ll be the first to raise my hand. I’m guilty as charged.

I tell my kids I be there in a minute… when I’m scrolling through Instagram. I act like I’m listening to my partner… as I check how many people have viewed my Insta story. I pull up to the traffic lights… mindlessly reaching for my phone.

I know I’m not the only one guilty of this. (Please tell me I’m not the only one?! Phew, thanks! x)

Why have we become more invested in what total strangers are doing while we ignore the loved ones who are right in front of us? Continue reading

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We Need To Talk About… | Episode #1

A few weeks ago, 2 of by business besties and I were having one of our regular Skype catch ups. These chats online have become super special to me as working from home juggling kids, trying to keep all the balls in the air can get bloody hard! As soon as I speak with my Kate’s, it always leaves me feeling less alone.

Isn’t it crazy how connected we are yet we can often feel a little lonely. Continue reading

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Lip Colour

LipColour_featureAfter my chat about lip shape options a few weeks back, I’ve been getting lip-creative. Don’t worry – just with the colour, NOT the shape!

I’ve tried to do the dark lip thing but it just doesn’t work for me. Plus I’m scared that it’ll get on my teeth and have me looking more like a pirate than Lily Aldridge. (Coz the only difference between me and LA is her ability to pull off a purple lip! Heheh!)Continue reading

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